This might be triggering to some people,so please if you’re easily influenced go ahead and search the lol tag instead.
Today I was talking with a good friend about weight and how I feel very flabby lately. She asked how much I weigh and I told her, and then I mentioned how I used to weigh between 107 to 111 lbs because I barely ate and she was just like “oh my gosh wow that’s so good how’d you do it!?” I told her that I hated myself and tortured myself daily and she still said well you had good will power. I wish she could understand that I don’t want her to applaud that number or be jealous of it. I was sick, and I just feel very triggered at her reaction. I should have never mentioned it, even as I write this I wonder why I brought it up. Why can’t I move past the past? I know it has shaped me but goodness this is a new moment, not an old.